But I never asked you out "
"I never said we are dating"
Those were his words to me as we argued .
I looked at him again .
But he called me "baby,sweet heart,mylove"
Long talk in the days , and unending gist at night .
He was the reason no man had a chance in my life
We planned our lives together, so I thought
"I have somebody I love. Let's just remain as normal friends so I dont affect your relationship " he continued .
Which relationship tunde?
The first tears dropped from my eyes. They were tasteless.
The second dropped.
It tasted like crayfish and tumeric.
Somebody was definitely cooking in my eyes here .
I was already on my knees
My world was spinning.
" Let's talk about this tunde. If I did anything to upset you. I am sorry"
I begged.
More tears dropped!
I searched my mind to remember any time he actually asked me out something I could remind him of instantly
Tunde was Right!
My eyes widened
I had assumed.
He had played me.
"No"I shook my head frantically
My emotions deceived me
I had played myself.
"Please tunde, you can't do this to me"
I pleaded more.
He made to leave.
I grabbed his legs and he struggled to push me out.
Something fell out of the file he held.
I picked it up.
My hands were shaking. As I opened to read it, my legs dropped .
Tunde was getting married next month!
I didn't know how long it was before I blanked out .
.........
Three weeks later , all I could do was stare into empty space .
My mum was afraid. I had not even said a word to anybody this 3 weeks .
But I did say a lot in my mind.
I just didn't know why my tongue couldn't throw the words out.
" Nne try to eat your food it's getting cold" mum said
Mum had done every thing to get me to eat.
It was fruitless .
I gazed at the okasi soup and eba comfortably sited at the dinning table in matching plates.
The room was spinning. I didn't know how long it was before I put my head on the dinning table and passed out.
.....
The days that followed were better for me.
Tunde was by my bed side answering all the questions I asked him.
"Why did you throw 6 years of my life away?" I asked him
"Am sorry baby, I am back now for good" he answered.
I smiled.
I turned and noticed mum by my bedside. she wiped off tears from her eyes.
But why was she crying?
A slender looking man stood by her side.
By his attire I could tell he is a doctor.
"This is how she has been doctor. she calls the wall tunde"
mum said and wiped off another ticking tear.
" We may need to involve a psychiatrist. Shock and trauma is making her hallucinate and these could be early signs of psychosis" He said.
I couldn't understand what they said .
I turned and looked at my Tunde .
He smiled at me.
..............,............................
The road to my therapy venue now looked familiar
I could even go by myself .
At the beginning, dad took me there,so I was told.
He had looked for the best in town and coined the name to suit him. He felt uncomfortable calling it a psychiatrist hospital .
Dad wasn't going to accept that his daughter became *mad*
I stepped down from my car .
The harmattan wind came so strong and blew iced wind down my lungs.
I breathed in deeply.
Few months back, breathing in was difficult.
It felt like someone pushed down hot boiled water down my lungs everytime my drugs knocked me back to reality.
"Madam welcome " the gateman said .
" Thank you " I replied him as I stepped Into the building.
It's been one year already since dad first brought me here; one year since Tunde got married.
My therapy session was ending next month .
I turned to the gateman and smiled gently.
It was the first time I was smiling after one year.
Dad said I could travel to any part of europe I wanted to see when I finish therapy.
The sun will shine tomorrow and I will rise up and try again.
.........................................................
What more do I say.
Seek clearity
Ask questions, and ask them early.
You are not cheap if you ask "what are we"?
You will only look cheap when you assume to be what you are not .
Geefted's pen✍🏼
But I never asked you out "
"I never said we are dating"
Those were his words to me as we argued .
I looked at him again .
But he called me "baby,sweet heart,mylove"
Long talk in the days , and unending gist at night .
He was the reason no man had a chance in my life
We planned our lives together, so I thought
"I have somebody I love. Let's just remain as normal friends so I dont affect your relationship " he continued .
Which relationship tunde?
The first tears dropped from my eyes. They were tasteless.
The second dropped.
It tasted like crayfish and tumeric.
Somebody was definitely cooking in my eyes here .
I was already on my knees
My world was spinning.
" Let's talk about this tunde. If I did anything to upset you. I am sorry"
I begged.
More tears dropped!
I searched my mind to remember any time he actually asked me out something I could remind him of instantly
Tunde was Right!
My eyes widened
I had assumed.
He had played me.
"No"I shook my head frantically
My emotions deceived me
I had played myself.
"Please tunde, you can't do this to me"
I pleaded more.
He made to leave.
I grabbed his legs and he struggled to push me out.
Something fell out of the file he held.
I picked it up.
My hands were shaking. As I opened to read it, my legs dropped .
Tunde was getting married next month!
I didn't know how long it was before I blanked out .
.........
Three weeks later , all I could do was stare into empty space .
My mum was afraid. I had not even said a word to anybody this 3 weeks .
But I did say a lot in my mind.
I just didn't know why my tongue couldn't throw the words out.
" Nne try to eat your food it's getting cold" mum said
Mum had done every thing to get me to eat.
It was fruitless .
I gazed at the okasi soup and eba comfortably sited at the dinning table in matching plates.
The room was spinning. I didn't know how long it was before I put my head on the dinning table and passed out.
.....
The days that followed were better for me.
Tunde was by my bed side answering all the questions I asked him.
"Why did you throw 6 years of my life away?" I asked him
"Am sorry baby, I am back now for good" he answered.
I smiled.
I turned and noticed mum by my bedside. she wiped off tears from her eyes.
But why was she crying?
A slender looking man stood by her side.
By his attire I could tell he is a doctor.
"This is how she has been doctor. she calls the wall tunde"
mum said and wiped off another ticking tear.
" We may need to involve a psychiatrist. Shock and trauma is making her hallucinate and these could be early signs of psychosis" He said.
I couldn't understand what they said .
I turned and looked at my Tunde .
He smiled at me.
..............,............................
The road to my therapy venue now looked familiar
I could even go by myself .
At the beginning, dad took me there,so I was told.
He had looked for the best in town and coined the name to suit him. He felt uncomfortable calling it a psychiatrist hospital .
Dad wasn't going to accept that his daughter became *mad*
I stepped down from my car .
The harmattan wind came so strong and blew iced wind down my lungs.
I breathed in deeply.
Few months back, breathing in was difficult.
It felt like someone pushed down hot boiled water down my lungs everytime my drugs knocked me back to reality.
"Madam welcome " the gateman said .
" Thank you " I replied him as I stepped Into the building.
It's been one year already since dad first brought me here; one year since Tunde got married.
My therapy session was ending next month .
I turned to the gateman and smiled gently.
It was the first time I was smiling after one year.
Dad said I could travel to any part of europe I wanted to see when I finish therapy.
The sun will shine tomorrow and I will rise up and try again.
.........................................................
What more do I say.
✅Seek clearity
✅Ask questions, and ask them early.
✅You are not cheap if you ask "what are we"?
✅You will only look cheap when you assume to be what you are not .
©️Geefted's pen✍🏼